Hello again

Wow,

I forget that I even had this blog site! .... and it was a pleasure to rediscover it again today! ... what a journey that last few years has been.

Today I am making a promise to myself ... to my soul, to my identity to my universal being ... the transformation process began back in Jan 2010 (I felt it the day i bought the jasper crystal) ... yet I denied it ... and today I felt a complete hole within ... i felt the depth of emptyness, it engulfed me for 30 minutes ... i felt soooo low, and then I just thought to accept it ... i went to the bathroom .... in a way unable to breathe properly ... then i started to breathe ..... "let it be, i heard a voice say to me, let it be...." ..... then I looked in the mirror and saw something in my eyes ... a recognition ... an awareness ... to just be ... let this be ....

... so that is where I am at today ... in a sense defeated ... in a sense victourious .... sad .... yet happy ....

yes this is a contridiction ... and yet I can 'see' which one is the ego, and which one is not ....

... time to venture on .... time to allow the transformation to just happen .... fight all you want ego ... I know where my strength lyes ....