one day at a time

... in the last few days it has been more evident to me that each day can mean the realisation of a dream come true, but equally it can destroy a dream. I had that experience. About 2 wks ago, I thought a dream was soon to be realised, and just with a few words within a matter of days it was taken away from me .... as simple as that. The wheel-of-fortune didnt even give me the time to enjoy the 'joy' though its has defintely left me with the feeling of sadness. I know that I would not really be writing this, if it was the other way round, or there would be more of a feeling of 'happiness' from the post. I am not sad, though, I guess the realisation is that nothing is certain, nothing at all, circumstances, situations, positions, etc, etc.

We are told to enjoy each day, its hard to do, when the mind is all over the place. How can I really remain in the 'present' with baggage on my shoulders, and plans having to be made to ensure tommorow is better.

Define better, I think. Not now. Not until I stop pressurising myself. I definetly am hard on myself, but then I know my 'capability.'

If ONLY.

Stay well

Pav ... x