Birthday Reflections

Nearly a week since I turned 26, and I must thank all of you who put "old woman" on my birthday card, with friends like you, i dont need enemies! lol

Seriously, we are as old as we feel, and I feel soooooooooo young :D ... so i have nothing to complain about.

I've been going through some transition in the last few weeks, I cant really describe what it is, its more a feeling, a feeling of change, and 'shifting.' I feel more aware of my surroundings, my life, and what I want to do. But society will always have its own rules "must to this, or that." It is that which I am fighting with. But the reason I am feeling contentment right now is knowing that only I can change my feelings, and no one else. I must be 'complete' with myself, for if I am to feel complete in life. Something is always missing, but then really nothing is missing.

Due to circumstances I do require some 'materialistic' items to get on with my life, but really it is not a neccessity, its a desire, a wanting. But then I realise, once you "get" what you want, there is no completeness there. Completeness comes to me, when I feel content, when I FEEL peaceful, and then my surroundings are affected, and people around me.

This world really is made of energy, and I am building on a new approach. An approach that only really looks at one day at a time in most cases. An approach that makes me more at peace with myself. I have only discovered this in the last few days, to be calmer, and do what I can do, and what ever else there is (which is out of my hands) leave it to the universe.

Lets see how I get on.

See you soon

Pav :)